all i wanna do is *gun shots* and a *cash register noise*
and take yo money
more stupid sketchy things I am not satisfied with, yaay
I will sit there and pretend this anime is as cute and happy as it’s style is….
wait I am not sure does she say unpleasing or unpleasant I watched it with russian subtitles agh sorry if I made a mistake=_=
Please be aware of who you add onto skype from tumblr.
It’s honestly really hard for me to explain to the full extent of what he did, since I’m somewhat afraid to go into detail. But, Terry (currently godtiermoemura) just decided to end the friendship after telling me to kill myself and hoping that people I care about die around me. Sorry, Terry, but I guess I’m now just one of those “assholes” you complained about.
I wish I didn’t have to make a post like this, but I really feels necessary to make now. This past weekend has been a mess, but I’ll start from the beginning.
Terry had originally sent me an ask around October to chat about anime on skype. Figuring, eh, sure why not? I added him onto skype. We continued to talk and then he kept saying he wished he could be “himself”. So I figured, well, may as well let someone be themselves if they are going to be my friend so I can know the ‘real them’.
Apparently he took this as not allowing boundaries and to persistently ask sexual questions.
Trying to be nice I would say no, but eventually gave in to answering some because it was honestly overwhelming me and he would seem to guilt trip me to feeling bad for not answering them.
I tried to sympathize with him on his issues of not being able to keep friends or people not listening. I genuinely felt bad that he felt alone and did my best to be his friend. Yes, occasionally we did have some fun and interesting conversations.
At times he had made me break down into tears because he was acting honestly really rude because he wasn’t getting his way. One was because he kept asking a particular question in a sexual context that eventually just made me break down when I answered and just begin to pull hair out because I was that much of a mess. Other times he made me cry due to saying he “didn’t see me as his friend” when I was doing my best to be nice to him. Rarely did he ever say sorry. Rarely did he try to make things alright. Apparently it was always “my fault”.
I often would be asked to help him out in a sexual way, or provide information that was in a sexual content. If I did not provide an answer, he would get upset or keep asking until I answered. Once or twice in a skype call he openly masturbated with his mic on because I was tired of him asking if he could.
When he was upset at me, he would call me a “bitch”, “an asshole”, “ass”, and would tell me to “fuck myself” or “fuck off”. And now, recently, he has told me to kill myself or wishing death upon people close to me.
All because I wouldn’t see him the way he apparently saw me. Which I guess was either “more than a friend” or something in a sexual context, I’m not really sure what exact way he saw me. He continued to push for me to see him that way more than once, at times would ask if my boyfriend would be willing to share me, if I could leave my boyfriend, or if I could just give into his requests once and he would stop. I’ve told him multiple times that I was not comfortable with what he wanted and I was happily taken.
I hadn’t told my boyfriend about Terry’s actions until recently, and he told me I really shouldn’t put up with this and not talk to him anymore. By this time, I felt really stuck because, well… I was trying to be a friend to someone who I guess no longer was trying to be a friend to me… I didn’t know who to reach out to, and I was honestly afraid to reach out to anyone.
Today was the end of this “friendship”, I guess. He deleted me off skype after telling me to off myself and such, and I figured that it would be best to delete him off my skype back. When I checked Tumblr, he had sent 10 asks repeating “fuck you” over and over, to which one of them I have published here: http://ribcagekitten.tumblr.com/post/68958593002/fuck-you-fuck-you-fuck-you-fuck-you-fuck-you-fuck-you
I tried my best to be nice and be a friend, but I guess in the end, the friendship I provided didn’t matter to him. I am done with the emotional abuse and manipulation. I’m done being treated like crap when I only tried to be nice.
Terry, if you decide to read this, I know you are probably angry at me. Probably seething at me right now. But you have hurt me many times, and despite being hurt I was still nice to you when we were still ‘friends’. I did my best to be there for you. I wish you a good life, even if you wished death on mine.
So… yeah.. to my pals and just people out there, don’t put up with abuse. Don’t put up with someone hurting you. Don’t put up with someone trying to pressure you to do things for them despite being told no.
Please stay safe everyone. Your happiness and emotional health is important. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise…
After everything he’s done to you, you have no reason to apologize to that sick fuck. We’re here for you.